SHS

How is it feel if we can't make something better than before? Why I didn't do that and this and that what-so-ever. And never making any changes. Feels so guilty and always regret about that, right? So am I.

Last Friday night, I already knew about my Try Out score. And? It's really different from I've imagined before. And I know if my Dad and Mom see my score, they will upset to me and about punishment. I must ready for that. I'm feeling so guilty. I know this is my fault at all. I didn't study as hard as I can. I just pray without trying and trying. But at that time I've felt I can do it all so good. Here's my result,

- Indonesia : 80

- Math         : 60 (it supposed to be 66)

- English      : 82

- Science      : 74

The average of my score was increasing at all and I'm still thank for that. I got the same class again, 3. What will my parents think about my score? I'm so sorry Dad, Mom. I've just realized if I never try harder and don't make any changes I will be like this for a long time. And my target to get a good Senior High School will failed. I just never know how to try harder. 

The National Exam will be held at March 29 and it is about 2 months remaining. On February I must make some changes about my score and about my Daily Test score. I must get 9 at least to get some rank and success on National Exam.

Anyway I got some little problem here. I still confused about choose one school after graduation. 8 SHS or 81 SHS? I really want to be listed as 8 SHS student or 81 SHS student. Which one? Any advice for me? Honestly, I'm afraid for choosing 8 SHS. Because I knew there is a lot of human (I mean teenager older than me ofcourse) that we can call them "Genius Brain". Really really genius brain. I'm afraid if I study at there I will be so late about knowledge. And get dropped out because I can't blend with them all. How about 81 SHS? I don't really know. I'm freaking out! Please, I need some advice.

For next Try Out my score must higher than before. I promise! At least 85 for Try Out. Wish me luck y'all guys! I'll see you soon.

Regards,

Kinanti

So-Late-Update. I'm Sorry!

Hi readers! Aaa I miss to write something. I know this is really my late update. In case I really want to tell about everything I had but I think there is no much time to write it down in this writing box. Hey here I am. I'm in grade 9 and it means I will face the National Exam. It 66 days left. Time goes so fast. If I could wish for one thing I will make time slower than before. But I know it's possible. I don't have some strength to stop the time. Idiot.

Well haha I'm spechless. Anyway whoever has read my post I want you all to keep pray for me when I face the National Exam. I'm really serious about my graduation. I won't make my parents disappointed again. I want to make them proud of me. I will try my best. So, maybe I will update this blog once a week. I'm sorry. But after finish the National Exam I will be back again to write all the things that I've done. Really :)

Anyway there is so much movie I want to watch. And now I'm Justin Lee Bartha biggest fan! Haha sometimes I will post about Justin Bartha. Soon! First I want to say Happy Belated Birthday my biggest inspiration all time, Zooey Deschanel! Wishing you all the best in every step you take and everything you make. Keep it going, Zooey.
Back about movie I want to watch so badly, first I want to have DVD Teachers (TV Series US) but  I think it's hard to find. Someone please who know where I must buy it tell me. Write in my C-Box. Thanks before.

Talk shit. There is so much awesome movie and interesting movie at the end of 2009 and at the beginning 2010.

• New York, I Love You
• Whip It!
• Nine
• Sherlock Holmes
• Iron Man 2
• The Spy Nextdoor
• Tooth Fairy
• Did You Heard About The Morgans?
• Penelope

Right? But  I will try to buy the DVD after the National Exam. I can't wait to watch it all! And I'm still waiting for National Treasure 3. Release : 2011. It's okay. I will wait to see Riley Poole (Justin Bartha!)

I think that is all for this time. On Monday, January 26 2009 I will face the second Try Out. Wish me luck! I wish I can get a good score so my parents proud of my score and me.

Take Care you all and see you in next week!

Regards,

Kinanti