Late Update

I MISS EVERYTHING IN THIS BLOG! Finally. It's nice to write my experience again. Hmm where do I begin? Honestly, I'm so sleepy right now. There is so many things to say to you all, readers. But I think I can't finish to tell it one by one this night. Later and I'm promise I will update about it soon. Anyway how about your holiday? I hope you enjoy it but I think I will not be able to enjoy Christmas holiday this year like Christmas holiday last year. 


So many reason why I said like that. First, a few days ago I just received a report and I am very proud of what I've got. But Try Out scores has ruined everything! Just because I got 50 for my Math test (I know maybe you will think I'm the dumbest ever but I've tried my best) and my dad was grounded me! No more internet, social networking, handphones, iPod. EVERYTHING! Oh come on dad. It's unfair. UNFAIR! 21st century kids can not live without gadgets and so am I. Did not you understand about that? And since that chaos I always felt irritable and began to move away from my family. Poor? It's so poor :'(


You know? I always cry when I remember about that chaos.I'm feeling so guilty but at another side I hate my Dad. It's hard, Dad to express my feeling. About what I thought to you. Maybe you will never want to hear me. For you, I'm such a little girl who just know how to be the stupid ever and a girl who always sitting in front of laptop. 


I'm trying, Dad. I'M TRYING oh gosh get me out from this confusing thing :( but I always thought I would be ready to face anything because I believe "don't wish for an easy life" no matter how hurts it feels. I must face it all. I know I can do it and I can prove that to my Mom and Dad. So I can make them proud. And I always try to be a patient girl to face the hardest destruction in my life. Here I am just ridding out the storm ;)

Tomorrow! Mother's Day. And I just remembered that I haven't buy anything for my Mom. I really want to search something and I will give it to my Mom. But I can't make it for this year. I'm sorry Mom. But I always praying in every single step you take you can get the best. Oh ya anyway a few weeks ago I made some poetry for my Mom. I hope she will like it.


And for all Christians have a nice holiday and get ready for Christmas celebration! Haha. I can't wait for Xmas and New Year ;D 

By the way Rest In Peace my fav actress Brittany Murphy :( still can not believe that she just passed away this morning. She will be missed.



Regards,
Kinanti

Spread It Out

Hey my readers. How are you doing?! Are you fine? I am so so bad right now. There is 2 reasons that really makes me curious and afraid. The most successfully makes me afraid is about my report. This Saturday I will see my report. My score at Middle Test too.

This day : Tuesday. I know about my Civilization score. It such a mess. Just got 70. What a poor score right? Oh hell...
And my Math. Please do not ask it to me. I am little sensitive about the Math score. Oh like I care haha.

Well. I am gonna tell you something in my mind. Recently, I love to see the sunset. Now I can see the fascinating scenery from my room or my balcony. Oh really. Suddenly I was impressed with many beautiful things that God has given to us. No one can makes a really really an amazing nature like this except God :) We should be grateful to God.

So I take a look at my old photos album. I just found out this..

The model is my siblings haha. My sister, Alita and my brother, Yuto. Look at them. What a fulled with love.

I also love this picture so damn much. I do not know exactly why I suddenly love to see the sunset. It can makes me relax and peaceful.

Next time I will posting with the picture too :)

Regards,

Kinanti

Earthquake

Hey readers. Few minutes ago. I just sat around and front of this computer. And then I saw someone tweeting about earthquake just happened again. Please, for you all. Don't you feel that this is sign from Allah to warning us? I already feel that since the first earthquake happened at Padang.

Really, I am afraid of that. Please stop the tears. No more earthquake. We can not stop an earthquake but we can prevent the wrath of Allah. Maybe we were warned by Allah of the earthquakes that frequently occur in this year. In 2 months there is so many an earthquake.

According to the teachings of my religion that profess Islam. This is a small end. An earthquake is small part of the doomsday picture. We as humans have to believe in the existence of the Hour. We do not know when it will happen. If Allah wills,  it happens and no one can stop that. Despite strong as any man. What makes me fear is the Day of Resurrection in Al Quran is written there on Friday. And you know what? Hey this is Friday. Oh come on..

Keep praying for you all. Once again. God is warn us :(

P.S : I have just deleted all my blog rolls. I am really sorry for that guys. Get dizzy when I saw it all! If you want to exchange link just write your req in my Chat Box.

Regards,

Kinanti.

Hello There

Hey my blog readers! How are you doing? How are you too?! Hope you all so fine. I'm fine too. Hm exactly not bad. But I'm not really in a good mood now. I just want to say that I have just deleted all my posts in this blog. Why? I don't know exactly why, just want to delete it all. So I'll start posting with different way for this time.

Enough for the prologue. What will we talk about in my first post? Hey I had just finished the dealing with the Middle Test. Oh really it makes my brain want to burst out. There is so many lesson that I must learn for about 5 days. What a tired day. But I am really happy to know it just over haha. But I still worry about my score. Hope I get a pretty well score amen.

And you know what? Some of my friends asked me. "Nan why you so comfortable to be alone recently?" Only that words just I am thinking of until I got home few hours ago. I want to say is "Being alone is not bad at all if you know what exactly you have done to yourself" Honestly I think this is my life now. I don't really care what people say about me.

I feel more comfortable with this condition. I am more interpreted what a experience is for. Makes we want do the best in this life as we can and want to have a better life for sure. I really want it so badly. Establishing a good thing and leave my bad habit is that I had ever done in the past for example. Always do something in the wrong path and use our bad habit is gonna kill yourself and it just make we fall into the darkest path. So what will you do in next? Try to fix it as you can. Do your best. And so do I. Keep pray for me guys. I need your support.

Whatever you want to say for my biggest change in my life but this is me. Not the old me. But the another side and the new me! I want to say goodbye to the old Kinan. Maybe this is odds for some of you to see my rotation. It will need pretty long time.

Prefer to life peacefully! Hahaha. And I just want to get closer with my Lord, Allah and my family. Because for the bright future I do it all.

And the last thing I want to say to you. This day is Oct 16 and it get closer to my birthday! November, 16. Can't wait for the best day ever for me!

So see you in the next posting!

Regards,
Kinanti